Growing up I was a strict Catholic like my parents. Every Sunday I went to church where I served as an altar boy. Later I discerned the priesthood but no one ever thought me how to think about prayer. No one really does teach us how to think about prayer or ourselves. We have to get lucky enough to stumble onto something that leads us to a realization otherwise we are like sheep following along to what is happening. Internally though we might not understand what is happening and we can really continue to maintain a mindlessness. I know I did. For a long time I remained mindless and not in full understanding of why or how. This served as a place of comfort to what I enjoyed doing even though it was hurting me. My instincts were untrained and I had bad discipline. What was I thinking during this time? I wasn't; I was just following the instructions externally.
Later in life I didn't understand anything but when I started to manifest I realized that I my approach to prayer was contributing to my internal and external situational mundane dread and sin. I didn't know how to pray and I didn't know what my approach was internally to prayer. My intentions weren't really aimed at anything and even-though feeling comfortable in the feelings of Catholicism I wasn't either happy nor winning at life.
I started to think about praying from a place of togetherness, abundance, wealth, and prosperity as if I already had it. I like to approach prayer as a means to maintain a healthy vision, be grateful, and move towards abundance in everyway. This is not something taught. This helped allot with not attracting anything other than what is good, abundance. When it was time during my spiritual journey to finally practice realization things were the same. Very difficult for a long time and I had to spend hours performing inner work to cleanse and see. No one taught me this. Not my mom nor my dad. I enjoyed going to church but it wasn't taught there either. I talked to psychologists for anxiety as a child and it wasn't taught there either. This was taught through my gurus and healers along my spiritual path in combination to other realizations and activations along the way.
The sad truth is that not many people take a spiritual path and really devote themselves to themselves through their inner work. Not many people choose devotion to Jesus, Buddha, or Krishna but those that succeed in a single walk with any descended master don't regret it. We are short in out walk with them. We simply give up and sit. When we start to reach our destination that is when things start to change. That is when you are no longer walking but you are gliding with Jesus, Buddha, or Krishna. Most practices as like that a journey and sometimes it is one uphill. Every practice has its rollercoaster but becoming receptive to this is priceless. Don't give up because the reward is priceless. Or employ a guru or healer to help with your journey for personalized care and attention that is surely to help you with your journey.